I see halos everywhere.
Everywhere I go, I see halos.
I see halos everywhere.
Everywhere I go, I see halos.
I can figure this out.
I can answer this question.
I can solve this equation.
I can work out this riddle.
I can break this code.
I can crack this case.
I can put this puzzle together if only I can find all the pieces.
I can locate it on a map,
try to draw a thin
unsteady dotted line,
from
here
to
there
and back again.
I can make this calculus work.
I can fashion an answer from this algebra.
x + y = father dead by suicide
(when I was just 14)
What is the x, the y, that ends in that solution?
Is there a z I’m missing?
Where, I beg of you, are the alternative outcomes?
I need to know.
I’ve needed to know for 26 years.
I can solve for x, for y.
For why.
But I can’t and that’s the trouble.
I can solve for everything else.
Everything but.
But it all comes back to him.