I can figure this out.

I can answer this question.

I can solve this equation.

I can work out this riddle.

I can break this code.

I can crack this case.

I can put this puzzle together if only I can find all the pieces.

I can locate it on a map,

try to draw a thin

unsteady dotted line,

from

here

to

there

and back again.

I can make this calculus work.

I can fashion an answer from this algebra.

x + y = father dead by suicide

(when I was just 14)

What is the x, the y, that ends in that solution?

Is there a z I’m missing?

Where, I beg of you, are the alternative outcomes?

I need to know.

I’ve needed to know for 26 years.

I can solve for x, for y.

For why.

But I can’t and that’s the trouble.

I can solve for everything else.

Everything but.

But it all comes back to him.